Showing posts with label dogs. Show all posts
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Sunday, August 15, 2021

Great Basin Adventure: Roadtripping in a U-Haul with the Dogs!

Welcome to a tale of goofiness, adventure, and new beginnings! Picture this: two canine companions, Ace, the Schnauzer/Terrier mix, and Bella, the regal Golden Retriever, packed into an overloaded U-Haul, towing our trusty Toyota Prius. The mission? To embark on an epic road trip through the Great Basin, mainly via the I.O.N Highway, from the sunny streets of La Crescenta, California, to the enchanting city of Boise, Idaho! 

On Friday night, with the help of friends, we finished packing up the U-Haul (and even used the extra space in the Prius to cram in the last of the paraphernalia from our time in California), finishing around 11pm. By the time I vacuumed the house, took a shower, and put on my traveling clothes, it was early Saturday morning, and I was behind schedule... 

So this adventure starts under the cloak of darkness at the ungodly hour of 1 am. As we bid farewell to La Crescenta, Ace & Bella gave me skeptical looks as if to say, "Who planned this crazy midnight adventure, hooman?" But we were ready for anything, or so we thought!

Ace, with his Terrier determination, immediately claimed the shotgun seat. Bella, my dignified Golden Retriever, grudgingly hopped onto the cab's floorboard. And so, our journey from California to Idaho began!

La Crescenta to Boise TripTik
La Crescenta - Boise TripTik
As we headed North, we left behind the familiar, following nearly 18 years in the same house. I was excited and more than a little apprehensive. But let's be honest, my attention was primarily focused on the drama unfolding inside the U-Haul cab. Turns out, the cab was more suitable for hobbits than dogs. Bella tried to nap but looked like a contortionist in a doggy yoga class. Ace bounced from the passenger seat to the driver's lap, trying desperately to stick his nose out one of the rolled-up windows. After a quick stop to top off the gas tank and buy some caffeinated beverages, we climbed up the Newhall Pass toward California's high desert and the Sierra Nevada Mountains. Ace's antics were nothing compared to Bella's attempts at graceful snoozing, which turned into a hilarious game of "How many dog positions can you fit in a U-Haul?"

The first part of this trip was familiar. Through the Antelope Valley, Lancaster, and past Edwards Air Force Base, all places we had visited before. As we passed through Red Rock Canyon State Park and CA-14 turned into US-395, it was still too dark to make out the colorful rock formations of the canyon (side note: many Golden Era movies and television shows were filmed in Red Rock Canyon, given its relatively close location to Hollywood). But driving through California's high desert on US-395N in the middle of the night was like venturing into an otherworldly realm.

The stars above twinkled like a thousand little diamonds scattered across the night sky, guiding us through the vast expanse. The silence of the desert was both haunting and enchanting, broken only by the mechanical hum of the truck's engine and the occasional thump, thump, thump of our tires driving over Bott's Dots.

As we neared Lone Pine, California, on our journey through the desert darkness, the headlights of our U-Haul cast eerie shadows on the desert floor. While the faint distant glow on the Eastern horizon was simply the first pangs of False Dawn. The dark desert landscape revealed its secrets in the night – the silhouettes of sagebrush and Russian Thistle (tumbleweed) standing like sentinels, the silvery light of the half-moon glinting off the rocky terrain. The serenity of the night journey allowed us to appreciate the desert's stark beauty in a new light.

Ace and Bella, usually alert during daylight hours, seemed to sense the surreal magic of the desert night. Their eyes sparkled with curiosity as they gazed at the shadows dancing in the moonlight. The desert's mysterious beauty seemed to cast a spell on all of us.

As the sun rose, we drove through Bishop, California, the gateway to Yosemite and the Sierra Nevada ski resorts. We made a right turn, picked up US Route 6 (the Grand Army of the Republic Highway - famed as the road that Jack Kerouac's protagonist, Sal Paradise, did not take in On the Road), and headed across the Hammil Valley and the White Mountains into Nevada and the heart of the Great Basin. Always a sucker for scenery, the morning light illuminated the basin's valleys and ridge lines making for interesting driving companions. But by this time, Ace and Bella seemed more intrigued by the treat crumbs scattered around the cab than the natural wonders outside. I am pretty sure they staged a secret mutiny against the compact space, plotting their revenge in doggy code.  I could tell they were hungry and needed to stretch their legs, so I obliged...

Veterans Memorial Park
Veterans Memorial Park, Hawthorne, NV

Our stop ended up being in Hawthorne, Nevada, for gas, breakfast, and their doggie potty break. After fueling and grabbing some quick food, I located Veterans Memorial Park - which conveniently has an off-leash dog park co-located within its boundaries. Even at this early morning hour, the Nevada desert was hot, so after the dogs ran around for a bit, they were happy to sit in the shade, eat some kibble, and lap water from their bowls while I ate my breakfast sandwich and downed another Coca-Cola (breakfast of champions).

Hawthorne's claim to fame is that it is the location of the United States Army's largest Depot (aptly named Hawthorne Army Depot). The town and the Depot were tranquil this mid-August morning, and although I didn't really have the time, I decided to check out the Hawthorne Ordnance Museum next to the park. Sadly the museum wasn't open at this early hour, so our travel resumed (and we've added another museum to our "to visit" list)...

Ace and Bella attempt a getaway...
The dogs attempt a get-a-way

In my rush to get back on the road, I failed to think about a bio-break for myself...  No sooner had we started driving again than I realized that fact. Fortunately, despite the lack of significant population centers in Central Nevada, I could see a small lake in the distance and assumed we'd find some form of civilization there. Walker Lake ended up being our pitstop. Typical of many small lakes on the western borders of the Great Basin, this "oasis" is fed through snowmelt on the Eastern slopes of the Sierra Nevada mountains (most of the Sierra's snowmelt actually flows westward into the Pacific Ocean - but sandwiched between high mountain ranges, the Great Basin is named as such because water can only escape through evaporation and/or absorption and can not flow to the ocean). At any rate, when I returned to the U-Haul, I found my canine companions were trying to drive away without me...Fortunately, I took the keys with me to the restroom...

The next stretch of our trip was long, hot, and outside of a few cars on the road devoid of humanity. Save for a stretch of driving on I-80, this section consisted of two-lane state highways that required lots of attention, limited use of cruise control, and miles and miles of desert and ranchland. The hours passed like dog years, and the clock seemed to tick backward as the sun crawled across the sky. North of Winnemucca, Nevada, we crossed into Southeastern Oregon and gradually climbed up the Jordan Valley escarpment to the Snake River Plain and our new place. However, just as the scenery changed from the desert of the Great Basin to the semi-arid plateau, the drowsiness of the lack of sleep for the past 48 hours started to rear its ugly head. 

To combat the drowsiness, I started by turning up the volume on my playlist and singing along at the top of my lungs. Then I rolled down the windows and let the wind slap my face in the vain hope that the fresh air would snap me back to alertness. But alas, my eyelids felt heavier with each passing mile, and on several occasions, the only thing that saved me from a horrible accident was the thump, thump, thump of the U-Haul's wheel driving over Bott's Dots.

I was desperate to stay awake and tried everything I could think of; I pinched myself, slapped my cheeks, and even splashed ice water from the cooler on my face. But it seemed that sleep was determined to claim its prize...

Just as I was about to give in to the sweet temptation of slumber, I noticed a peculiar sight on the side of the road. There, perched on a fence post, was a hilariously out-of-place rubber chicken, wearing sunglasses and a wide grin. The absurdity of the sight jolted me awake, and I burst out laughing.

Continuing down the road, my newfound mission was to spot more of these delightful road-trip mascots. And so, in my drowsy state, I kept score of each chicken sighting and narrated a play-by-play for Ace and Bella with each one...

The rubber chicken game was my lifeline during the trip. It kept my brain engaged, alert, and, most importantly, awake. Whenever fatigue threatened to overwhelm me, the thought of spotting another quirky chicken cheered me up and chased away the sleepiness, reinforcing our determination to reach Boise and start fresh in a new city with a new house and a new job.

Speaking of new beginnings, let's talk about starting over in a place where you know absolutely no one. It's like being the new kid at the world's biggest dog park – intimidating yet exhilarating. My strategy is simple: let Ace and Bella work their magic on the locals, and soon, we will make friends faster than they can wag their tails! At our last pitstop for gas and bio-breaks, Ace and Bella were zooming around the dog run when I noticed a friendly-looking couple standing nearby, smiling at my playful pups. They had an energetic Labrador named Bailey, who seemed just as thrilled to be there as Ace and Bella. To my surprise, they decided to initiate a conversation.

Last break before we get to our new home
Ace and Bella at the dog run

With warm smiles, the couple introduced themselves as Cindy and Dan. They immediately admired Ace and Bella's boundless energy and playfulness. Soon, we were exchanging stories about our beloved four-legged companions, laughing at their quirky antics.

Cindy and Dan's welcoming demeanor made it easy for me to open up about my relocation. They relayed that they were from Boise and returning from a trip to Idaho's wine country. They showed genuine interest in us and eagerly shared their experiences and favorite spots in the city. They recommended nearby pet-friendly cafes and beautiful parks to explore with Ace and Bella and even suggested dog-friendly social events where we could meet more fellow dog lovers.

Our conversation flowed effortlessly as if we were old friends catching up. They shared heartwarming stories about their journey to Boise and their love for the community's warm and welcoming atmosphere. They even offered to introduce me to some of their other friends in the area, knowing that making connections in a new city can sometimes be challenging.

Throughout our encounter, Cindy and Dan exemplified the idea of "Boise nice" to the fullest. Their genuine friendliness and willingness to reach out to a stranger at the dog run showcased the city's welcoming and inclusive spirit. The way they embraced me, a newcomer, with open arms left a lasting impression on my heart.

But let me tell you, folks, the joys of making new friends and exploring a vibrant city can be both thrilling and exhausting. We finally rolled into Boise around 5 pm, and we must have resembled a circus act gone wrong. Ace's whiskers were drooping, Bella's elegance had turned into a furball mess, and I'm sure my hair looked like I had survived a hurricane.

Exhausted Bella
Bella finally gets to sleep in the new house...

As we parked the U-Haul and took our first steps into our new home, we collapsed onto the floor in collective exhaustion. But as we caught our breath, we knew this adventure was just the beginning of a heartwarming and laughter-filled chapter in our lives.

So, dear readers, let this remind you that life's greatest moments often leave you exhausted and exhilarated. Our Great Basin adventure led us to Boise, where we discovered that sometimes, the best way to embrace a new beginning is with a dose of humor and a duo of adorable canine co-pilots.

As Ace, Bella, and I continue to navigate this delightful new chapter, we'll cherish the memories of our road trip. So, to all the adventurers out there, may you embrace the laughter, welcome the unknown, and let the journey take you to places you never imagined!

Until next time road-trippers, I wish you smooth roads and happy wagging tails!


Sunday, April 24, 2016

Just the Two of Us

Ace, the Glendale Trifecta, and What the Quiet Had to Say

There is a particular kind of quiet you only find on a trail when no one else is around. Not silence exactly. The chaparral has too much going on for that. But a quiet that settles over you like something lifted. The scrub oak moves. A hawk works a thermal overhead. Your trail shoes find a rhythm on the fire road, something between a hike and a run, the pace you fall into when the legs are warm, and the grade is manageable and there's nowhere else you need to be. And next to you, a twenty-pound Schnauzer/Scottish Terrier mix matches it stride for stride, nose down, ears up, doing the job.

That was most of 2014 and 2015 for me. The kids were grown or nearly so. Kailey was in Pennsylvania, finishing college and then starting medical school. Ted was away at school, though I could still catch his baseball games when the schedule allowed. Faith was finishing high school, more independent by the week, her own life assembling itself in ways that were good to see and strange to adjust to. The house that had been full for twenty years was going quiet. I was in a relationship that wasn't what I wanted. Somewhere in that mix of pride, uncertainty, and an open calendar, I started getting up early on Saturdays and taking the dog to the mountains.

Ace and me, out on the trails above Glendale and Pasadena every weekend, covering ground, not saying much to each other because we didn't need to. He wasn't asking any hard questions. Neither was I, exactly. But somewhere on those fire roads, between mile two and mile six, with the city falling away below and nothing required of me except to keep moving, the questions had a way of surfacing on their own.

We were in shape for it. On weekdays, rain or shine, we'd run a morning 5K through our La Crescenta neighborhood, before I left for work. Ace set the tempo, pulling hard through the first half mile until he settled in. By the time the weekends came, we weren't starting cold.

It started simply: hike the peaks above home. Verdugo Peak. Cerro Negro. Mount Lukens. They sat above the sprawl, indifferent and patient. I lived close enough. One weekend at a time.

Ace volunteered without being asked.

Cerro Negro: The Training Ground

We started with Cerro Negro because it was close, and close meant we could keep coming back. Cherry Canyon Park is ten minutes from the house, free, dog-friendly, and on a weekend morning active with runners and trail regulars who know the difference between a hike and a workout. The San Rafael Hills aren't dramatic. They're the small, scrubby range east of the Verdugos that most people in La CaƱada Flintridge drive past every morning without a thought. We weren't there for drama. We were there to build.

Every weekend for about a month, Ace and I pushed through the park's 130 acres until we knew it like the back of our hands. Cherry Canyon Motorway. Ridge Motorway. The Cerro Negro Trail proper, a stretch of single track through scrub oak with views east over the San Gabriel Valley. The Five Points junction, where the fire roads fan out, and you pick your line. We tried every combination, figured out which climbs built the most and which descents let us open up. Covering 130 acres on repeat turns a park into a training circuit.

What I remember most about that stretch isn't any single morning. It's the repetition. The way a trail changes when you run it enough times to stop thinking about the footing and start thinking about everything else. In late fall, the light comes sideways across the ridge by mid-morning. The San Gabriels, sharp and snowcapped on the coldest days, appear and disappear behind the shoulder of the hill as you move. Partway down from the ridgeline, where a small creek had coaxed a strip of coast live oaks into existence, the trail went shaded and cool. Coming out of the exposed chaparral at pace, that stretch always hit like a reward. The temperature dropped five degrees, the light went green, and Ace picked up his knees a little as if he felt it too.

The summit tower at 1,887 feet now holds communications antennas, but a painted bench sits nearby, pointed southwest toward Glendale and downtown Los Angeles. We'd stop briefly, water up, take in the view. Ace worked the fence line. The hawk that seemed to live on the same thermal every morning ignored us both. Then back down, moving.

The post-hike ritual was as reliable as the trail itself. A few minutes south on Foothill Boulevard to Juice It Up!, something cold and green for me, shade and a spot on the patio for Ace. He had a talent for making strangers feel personally responsible for acknowledging his efforts. He was usually successful.

Cherry Canyon was our warm-up. By the time we moved on to bigger things, we were ready.

Verdugo Peak: The Figure Eight

I wanted to approach Verdugo Peak from the north, not the way the trail guides suggest. The Brand Park approach from the Glendale side is the most-written-about route, but it puts the city in front of you from the start. I wanted to earn the view. So we started at the end of Whiting Woods Road in La Crescenta, through the gate of the Verdugo Mountains Open Space Preserve, and hit the fire road moving.

The Whiting Woods climb is steep from the first step and stays that way. Steeper than the approaches from the south, which partly explains why the mountain bike traffic thins out fast. Fall was cooling into winter, and the air still carried the faint remnant of the previous season's fires. On those early weekend mornings, we often had the trail to ourselves. Ace worked ahead at his own pace on the north-facing slope, where the cold hangs on longer, burning off the chill section by section.

The Verdugo Motorway opens things up when you reach it. The range is only eight miles long and two miles wide, and from the main fire road you can see both sides at once. To the north, La Tuna Canyon drops away, and the San Gabriel Mountains rise immediately behind it. To the south, nothing yet. Just ridgeline, chaparral, sky. The summit keeps itself hidden until you're almost on it.

At 3,126 feet, Verdugo Peak announces itself with radio towers and a communications building. These mountains are honest about what they are: not wilderness, but the rough working edge of a city that ran out of room. The infrastructure can't take away the view. On a clear winter morning you see downtown Los Angeles to the south, Pasadena to the east, the full San Fernando Valley to the west, and on the best days, Catalina Island, faint and gray. We stopped here long enough to mean it. Ace sat beside me, which he almost never does voluntarily on the trail, as if the summit required a different kind of attention than the climb.

The descent ran us down the southern slope toward the La Tuna Canyon side, skirting the range in a loose figure eight before we climbed back through the preserve and dropped to Whiting Woods. Long miles, good miles, the kind that accumulate in the legs and leave you honestly worked.

The reward was Jeremy's. The little diner on Honolulu Avenue has been a La Crescenta fixture long enough that the servers know the regulars by their usual orders. The shaded outdoor patio doesn't just tolerate dogs. It welcomes them, with an ice water bowl already out when you arrive. Ace would drain it fast, with the urgency of a dog who has covered serious miles. I'd order over-easy eggs with whatever came alongside them, drink too much juice, and watch him go out under the table before I finished my meal. A complete morning.

Mount Lukens: The Hard Lesson

We didn't go to Mount Lukens without preparation. The full loop from Deukmejian Wilderness Park is over ten miles with nearly 3,000 feet of gain, longer and harder than anything else on the list. For several weekends beforehand, we ran the lower trails out of Deukmejian to build legs and get comfortable with the terrain. Ace knew those trails well enough by the end that he'd accelerate through sections he'd sorted out, taking turns wide, reading the grade ahead. Those Saturday mornings had their own rhythm: pre-dawn drive to Markridge Road, hit the trailhead hard, cover the miles, then drive to Everest on Foothill Boulevard for something massive. A french toast and eggs, usually. Everest has never once underdelivered on portion size.

The full summit day started at the Cooks Canyon Trail. The opening miles are unlike anything else on this loop. The trail drops into a shaded creek bottom where a year-round stream runs through a narrow grove of sycamore and willow, the kind of low canopy that doesn't belong to the chaparral at all. Four narrow footbridges cross deep ravines in quick succession. After weeks of exposed ridge running, that cool, green corridor felt almost startling. Ace moved through it with extra attention, nose in constant contact with the ground, processing a completely different set of information than the dry hillsides offered.

The Cooks Canyon Trail connects to the Rim of the Valley Trail, which climbs out of the canyon and links to Haines Canyon Motorway. This is where the mountain starts asking serious questions. The motorway is a long, grinding fire road that wraps around the back side of Lukens, gaining elevation steadily with no shade and nothing to look at except the next section of road above you. The San Gabriel Mountains fill the view to the north and east as you climb, the chaparral giving way to scrubbier, sparser growth. It is not a scenic stretch. It is a work stretch.

The Mt. Lukens Truck Trail branches off near the top and delivers you to the summit. At 5,074 feet, the highest point within the city limits of Los Angeles is marked the way civic infrastructure always marks things: radio towers, locked equipment buildings, chain-link fence. The USGS benchmark is set in concrete in front of the towers. You have to step off the road briefly to stand on the actual high point. We did. Then we ate our snacks, drank our water, and looked. To the west, Verdugo Peak sat on its ridge, visible and now familiar. Beyond it, Griffith Park, downtown Los Angeles, the Pacific. To the east, the ragged skyline of the San Gabriels. The marine layer that had softened the morning start was burning off faster than I'd expected. We felt good. We started down.

The descent follows the Crescenta View Trail, and the name earns itself fast. The switchbacks face south and west, the entire Los Angeles Basin opening below as you lose elevation. It is the best view on the loop. It is also fully exposed, and by mid-morning in late spring, the sun was working hard. Ace's black coat absorbed it all. I noticed him throttle back. Not dramatically. Ace doesn't make a production of discomfort. But there's an unmistakable way his stride shortens and his head drops, and you understand his body is managing something his will hasn't acknowledged yet. I pulled back to his pace and started watching his gait and breathing instead of the trail.

About two-thirds of the way down, he found the redoubt before I did. A circular stone piling we'd named on earlier training runs, a small ring of rocks throwing just enough shade for a twenty-pound dog to press into. On a normal day it was a waypoint. That June morning it was the most critical piece of real estate on the mountain. I poured out the last of our water, half to drink and half over his coat, and we stayed until his breathing steadied and his ears came back up.

The Crescenta View Trail connects back to the Dunsmore Canyon Trail for the final stretch to the parking lot. We covered it at a walk. We made it down.

I packed two extra water bottles and set the alarm an hour earlier every time after that.

Standing at the trailhead cooling down, I ran the math. Cerro Negro. Verdugo Peak. Mount Lukens. Three peaks above Glendale, all done. That's when the name came to me: the Glendale Trifecta. It made the whole thing sound more official than it was. We'd done it, and I liked knowing that.

Pasadena: Learning New Ground

The trifecta was done, but the Brown Mountain and Arroyo Seco loop was still out there. Twenty-six miles. A different order of distance than anything we'd attempted. The Cerro Negro and Verdugo months had built us for the Glendale peaks. For this, we needed Pasadena.

Over the next several weeks, Ace and I explored the trail system threading through Hahamonga Watershed Park, the Upper Arroyo, and the Lower Arroyo, all connected through the hinge of Devil's Gate Dam. The full circuit circumnavigates the Rose Bowl in a loose loop, the stadium visible from multiple angles as you move through it, a strange and grounding landmark for an urban trail run. The terrain shifts constantly. Sandy wash. Oak woodland. Exposed ridge. Paved path alongside a golf course where you could hear golfers debating their lie from across the fairway. It keeps you paying attention.

Hahamonga is 1,300 acres, named by the Tongva people who lived here long before anyone else. The word means "Flowing Waters, Fruitful Valley," and it earns that. The park sits where the Arroyo Seco first leaves the San Gabriel Mountains and opens into the basin, and you feel that transition on foot. The lower trails run through open sandy wash with wide views of the front range, JPL's buildings visible to the west. The upper trails narrow and go shaded in the oak woodland, the temperature dropping noticeably. A disc golf course runs through one section, and you get used to the distant sound of a disc hitting chains while hawks circle overhead. It is a genuinely odd park, and we liked it.

Devil's Gate Dam is the connector. Built in 1920 as the first flood control dam in Los Angeles County, it sits where the Arroyo Seco pushes through a narrow gorge. Its name comes from a rock formation that once resembled a devil's profile in the canyon wall, now covered during restoration and gone, but the name remains. A tunnel under the 210 Freeway links the watershed to the Upper Arroyo, and passing through it always felt like a gear change: from the open, arid wash of Hahamonga into the greener, more wooded character of the Arroyo proper.

The Upper Arroyo trails run alongside the stream, water audible most of the year, Brookside Golf Club pressing against one edge while the canyon drops away on the other. The Rose Bowl appears and disappears as you move. In the Lower Arroyo, the Colorado Street Bridge appears above you, its Beaux-Arts arches rising 150 feet over the canyon. The traffic on it so far up reads more like architecture than road. Ace had strong opinions about the stream crossings in this section, which varied by season and by how much he'd been looking forward to getting his feet wet.

Together, the three parks gave us mileage and variety. By the time we'd run those trails for several weekends, we had the legs for a long day and a feel for how the Arroyo Seco canyon behaved. Knowing the terrain from the bottom gave us a sense of what we were climbing toward.

The post-hike stop on those Pasadena mornings was Lucky Boy on Arroyo Parkway, a roadside institution producing breakfast burritos since 1961 with no signs of reconsidering. The burrito is massive in the way only a place utterly indifferent to trends can manage: home fries, eggs, bacon, cheddar, the whole thing wrapped tight enough to hold together but large enough to challenge the paper bag's structural limits. Ace would get his water. I would get the burrito. Neither of us had complaints.

The Arroyo Seco: Twenty-Six Miles and a Detour

A few weeks after the Pasadena training runs, we drove back over for the real thing. The route ran counterclockwise from the Gabrielino Trail trailhead near JPL, up through El Prieto Canyon, across the Brown Mountain Truck Trail and the Fern Truck Trail, then the Ken Burton Trail toward Switzer Falls, before dropping back down the Arroyo Seco and completing the loop on the Gabrielino. Twenty-six miles. Over twelve hours.

The first several miles up El Prieto were familiar, the same shaded oak woodland and creek crossings we'd trained in, but longer and gaining more purposefully. Ace moved well, sorting the crossings cleanly, nose down in the canyon where the scent register is richer than anything on the exposed ridgelines. The Brown Mountain saddle opened the San Gabriel Valley below us, the Rose Bowl sitting on the valley floor, familiar now, seen from a completely different angle. The trail toward Switzer Falls threaded through increasingly narrow canyon terrain, the creek appearing and disappearing as the walls closed in.

Somewhere on the Ken Burton Trail, we took a wrong turn.

The trail thinned, and the canyon narrowed until we followed the Arroyo Seco into Bear Canyon, a slot canyon where the walls press close, and the creek fills the floor. A fallen tree spanned a dammed pool. It looked passable. It was not. We both went in, Ace first, then me, in a sequence that was avoidable and undignified. The water was cold enough to be instructive. Ace surfaced immediately, swam to the bank with the matter-of-fact competence of a dog who has been betrayed by humans before and expected no better, and waited on the rocks while I worked out my own exit. Patient. No moral support offered. He sat there, soaked and watchful, ready to move as soon as I got myself sorted.

We retraced our steps, found the right trail, and kept moving. Soaking wet, upward of sixteen miles in, still four or five hours from the car. Switzer Falls was worth it. The water drops into a pool that looks impossibly clear for something thirty miles from downtown Los Angeles, and we stood there a while, Ace finally still beside me, both of us dripping, the canyon quiet around us.

We got back to the car as the last light left the sky. No post-hike stop. Twelve hours on trail, an unplanned swim, twenty-six miles. We drove home. Ace ate his dinner, arranged himself on the couch with the settled finality of a dog who has given everything and has no further obligations, and didn't move until morning.

What the Quiet Had to Say

I sat in the quiet of the house and thought about the year.

Kailey was in Pennsylvania building a life I could admire from a distance. Ted was away at school, still letting me catch a baseball game now and then. Faith was nearly out the door, the last of the three, her own story gathering momentum. I'd spent twenty years as an involved parent, present, deliberate, all-in. Now the thing I'd given myself to most completely was winding down on its own schedule, which is the only schedule it ever follows. A relationship in my life wasn't what I needed it to be, and I was slow to admit it. I wasn't ready to answer questions about what the next chapter looked like.

The trails didn't answer any of that. But they gave me a place to carry it. That's what I was looking for, without knowing it: not solutions, just space. The fire roads don't ask anything of you. They go uphill, and you either follow or you don't. The thinking happens somewhere in the middle miles, when the effort is high enough to quiet the noise and low enough to let the mind move. By mile four or mile seven or mile twelve, things that had seemed complicated in the house at six in the morning were sometimes clearer. Not resolved. Held more honestly.

Ace didn't care about any of it. He wanted to be where I was. He woke up every weekday morning ready for the 5K, every Saturday ready for whatever came next. He fell into the creek in Bear Canyon, swam out, shook off, and waited for me to catch up. No complaint. No recrimination. Watchful, patient, ready. That's the best thing about dogs. It's also the thing I was trying to teach myself.

He was better at it than I was.

We kept hiking through 2015, and into 2016, and beyond. The questions got answered, some better than others. The kids kept building their lives. I kept lacing up the trail shoes on Saturday mornings, though the routes changed as I did.

Those two years on the trails above Glendale and Pasadena: the trifecta, the Arroyo, the long Saturdays spent covering ground. I carry them. Not because we climbed anything remarkable, though the views were good. Because of what it felt like to have a few hours every week that were completely uncomplicated. The two of us. Moving through the quiet. Working things out one mile at a time.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Saying Goodbye...

I hope you’ll forgive a detour from my usual posts. Today, I need to write about someone who was my faithful hiking companion, who loved to chase a tennis ball with unrelenting enthusiasm, who was always by my side during quiet nights, who greeted me at the door with joy, and who taught the kids and me more about unconditional love than most people ever will. This is a memorial for Madison, really Maddie to us, our beloved Yellow Labrador Retriever.

The better part of a decade ago, we rescued Maddie with the help of the Pups and Pals rescue. She’d been found living on the streets, estimated to be around two or three years old. She was skittish, especially around men, which led us to believe she’d been mistreated in her early life. But the first time we saw her, we knew. Faith, my daughter, reminded me recently that we fell in love with that goofy Lab at first sight. There was a spark in her, a sense of joy just waiting to come out.

She warmed up to us quickly, especially to me. Despite her size (she weighed over 90 pounds), Maddie was convinced she was a lap dog. If I sat on the couch or in my recliner, it wasn’t long before she climbed right into my lap, tail thumping and tongue ready. She had no sense of scale, and we loved her for it.

A little over a year ago, we brought another rescue into our home, a puppy named Ace. From day one, Maddie took him under her paw. She became his surrogate mom and big sister, teaching him the rhythms of our household: how to play gently, where the best sunspots were, when to bark, and when to nap. Ace adored her. He followed her lead, cuddled beside her each night, and looked up to her in every way. Her absence is confusing for him now; he still searches the house, tail wagging hopefully. He misses her as much as we do.

This past New Year’s, I started noticing that Maddie wasn’t quite herself. She was slower, less playful. I chalked it up to her age. But a couple of weeks ago, she began limping on one of her hind legs. I took her to the vet, hoping it was something minor. There was no obvious injury, but the X-ray revealed a faint spot on one of her lungs. Labs are sadly prone to lung cancer, the vet said. We went home with pain meds and instructions to rest.

Over the following week, her condition declined. I knew I needed to take her back to the vet, but I hesitated. Part of me was afraid of what I might hear. By the time I finally called, the soonest appointment was Monday evening.

Maddie and Faith, May 2011
That weekend became a gift. We spent long hours together, quiet time on the couch, short moments in the yard, and peaceful companionship. My son came home from college and had a chance to sit with her. My youngest daughter was off from school for Lincoln’s Birthday and spent the day curled up beside Maddie. When I got home from work that evening, the two of them were snuggled close on the couch. That image is one I’ll carry with me.

When I picked up Maddie’s leash for what would become her last car ride, she still perked up. She struggled off the couch, tail wagging faintly, happy just to go somewhere with me. We sat on the grass outside for a few quiet minutes. Then we headed to the vet.

The second round of X-rays confirmed what we feared: the light spot had developed into an aggressive tumor. The cancer had spread to her ear canal and leg. The fluid in her lungs made breathing difficult. Her body was failing her.

It was time.

In those final minutes, I lay down beside her on the floor of the vet’s office, holding her gently, cradling her head in my arms. I whispered to her, telling her what a good girl she was, what a gift she had been to our family. I didn’t want to let go. I wanted to stop time, to stay there with her just a little longer. She was calm and trusting, as always. And when the moment came, and the light left her failing body, she was wrapped in love.

Letting her go was one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made, but I know it was the right one. She’s no longer in pain. Still, the space she filled in our home and in our lives feels enormous now that she’s gone.

I like to think she’s somewhere free now, unburdened and unbothered. Running through open fields, tail up, nose in the wind. Rolling in the grass, barking at nothing and everything. Just being a dog again. I hope she’s found that place. And I hope she knows we’ll meet again someday. Until then, Maddie, run fast and look for me at the rainbow bridge.

One of my favorite photos of her, taken seconds before she licked the lens, became the basis for the “Yellow Labrador Retriever lover” microbadge I created on BoardGameGeek. It’s a small digital keepsake, but now, it’s also a quiet tribute. A reminder of her presence and her joy.

Rest well, girl. You are so deeply loved.

Maddie and the kids, Christmas 2011